I am so fucking embarrassed of they way I handled that situation.
Why do I always have to second guess myself? Why am I such a chickenshit?
I should have had the courage to enter that room and communicate what I needed too, but instead I ran away. I ran away like a scared child. I ran searching for an answer. What I was searching for was someone to help me instead of me standing up for myself. I was even in the right! But, all I found was my cowardly reflection, and I know they all saw it too.
I am just so embarrassed.
I am ashamed of me.
Why did I have to run?
Why can’t I believe in myself?